desert botanical gardens

adam and i had a pretty important conversation today, and i was brought to the realization that our connection and friendship in the past existed within a context that no longer exists for either of us. furthermore, i realized for the first time that what brought each of us into that old context (the social scene we were a part of) was not the same motive or intention, but two very different things. this cleared up any dissapointment i was projecting onto him, once i realized that what i wanted him to be now was something that he never was. and now that we find ourselves hanging out after both having left the scene and lifestyle we were in when we were close friends, all of those old connections are filed away as good memories and these new ones are lessons of unconditional love. adam is family to me, a brother who i could never deny compassion and appreciation for. and we agree to accept our differences.

after talking about this over sushi and matcha tea, we went to the phoenix botanical gardens. wow. what a cool and fascinating place. i have never seen such phenomenal cacti in my life. it was a very awesome experience.